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Sunday, 17 January 2010

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    im on to you.
    By Ian Axel
    Leave Me Alone!
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    The Streets I Love

    Hey Everyone!

    Happy 2010!!! I hope that all of your years are starting off as well as mine! I'm getting ready for the big jump down into Florida, so expect a lot of inspiration and an increase of updates. Speaking of which, I know it's been forever since I've updated, I know I'm a bad person =\ Truth be told, my laptop charger blew up, and I kinda need to buy a new one... fun! So it hasn't been lack of creativity, just been going online from my phone pretty much so I haven't been able to get onto xanga.

    So here's a little poem I wrote during my Modern History class... I mean honestly, how many times can you learn about WWI? I hope you enjoy, and have a great day!

    -lots of love,

    John

     

    The Streets I Love

     

    The streets are deserted,

    the winter scattered the mass

    The streets are empty

    the night, my last

     

    A homeless man, his wife,

    a daisy in the gutter

    They’re all I can see

    and send my heart a flutter

     

    A scarf around my neck,

    my finger frozen in its glove

    I shiver in my coat

    snow falls from above

     

    I escape in a diner,

    stealing its heat

    I begin to recall

    a life so sweet

     

    The touch of your hand,

    the smell of your skin

    The feeling I get

    when I see your grin

     

    I can see your face,

    haunting me so clearly

    My eyes begin to burn

    remembering your words sincerely

     

    A night like tonight,

    not long ago

    When you took my hand,

    set my heart aglow

     

    What’s happened since,

    still troubles my mind

    Breaks my heart

    and leaves me blind

     

    I look to the street,

    a taxi rolls by

    I sink in my seat,

    I begin to cry.

     

Monday, 19 October 2009

  • Hundred Word Sentance

    Yeah, you read that write... My latest project in creative writing is to write one sentence using 100 words. Well, it wasn't as hard as you'd think.. Hope you enjoy my first draft...

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    October Twelfth

    by John Giordano

                    She could never forget that frigid autumn night, October the twelfth, when the boy with the chestnut brown mop, a worn hole ridden t-shirt, ill-fitting jeans baggy on his slender frame, and untied converses sneakers wandered into the small coffee shop on the outskirts of town where she bussed tables; she watched him from across the dimly lit room, through the sea of barren oak tables surrounding him as he stared at his untouched large ceramic mug full of tazo tea, his forest green eyes glassing over, his pale flesh almost glowing as his lips formed a rough straight line.



Wednesday, 30 September 2009

  • Currently
    Hair (The New Broadway Cast Recording)
    By The New Broadway Cast Recording
    Sheila Franklin/ I Believe In Love
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    A short story, about two crazy characters

    So I'm in another Creative Writing class, so expect lots more of updates...

    The assignment was to take two characters "Tony Figgerello" and Mo'Nique Della Qui and have them interact. That was it. Oh and it was a group project, so my group decided to all write a draft, and compair, and see what worked and what didn't work... Here's my draft...

    P.S. Look at what I'm listening to... suprisingly enough the Hippie Love Music can inspire some pretty dark writing, YEAH!

    *WARNING* They're some pretty vulgar parts, it's written in the perspective of a Mobster/Hittman... Enjoy!

               The rain beat against the windshield, blurring my vision. I could barely see two inches in front of me, but none of that mattered. In the distance I could see that red blur that has haunted my sleep for the past three months. She’s speeding, and there’s only one way to catch her. I push the pedal, the wheels below me almost skidding out.

                I’m right on her ass, driving as if I had a death wish. Her scarlet Cadillac is inches away from me; I haven’t been this close to her in months.  I can’t take my eyes off her rear-view mirror, watching her every move. My body’s on autopilot as I swerve from lane to lane, trying to bridge the distance between our two cars.

                Crap, the bitch noticed me. A sharp turn and she’s gone. I sped past the road, unable to follow her. I spin the wheel with far more force than necessary, spinning my car around completely. I floor it, following her down Basin Street. I’ve lost her, her car’s nowhere to be found.

                After what seems like hours meandering through these empty streets, I finally find what I’ve been searching for; her red trail. I park across the street, almost forgetting to kill the ignition before swinging open the door. I step into the street, my foot splashing the water pooled along the curb. I run across the street to her car, my footsteps heavy on the flooded pavement. I place a hand on the car’s hood, it’s still warm. She’s close.

    Behind her car, I saw an opening to a passageway. She has to be there. The ally felt narrow, bordered by blackened skyscrapers on both sides. The buildings seem rundown, bums lining the steps to my right. I fondle the cannon in my pocket, picturing her corpse lying behind a dumpster. A small smile found its way to my face.

    `I see the neon lights and know exactly where the passage leads; some fag joint. I pause briefly wondering if this damn ally is where Mo’Nique Della Qui had first laid her filthy eyes on my sweet sweet Nancy. The image of them together still burns my eyes, twists my stomach into knots. I can’t think of my wife in the arms of anyone else, especially not some other broad.

    Nancy told me she wanted a child, and my god she’s going to get one. Killers aren’t raised, they’re born. I won’t be around forever to pick off the scum of this city; someone’s gotta replace me one day. My kid, he’d be a cold hearted son of a bitch, perfect for this. He’ll make me proud one day… But first they’re a couple things I need to take care of. That’s when I see her. I grip the handle of the revolver, tempted to blast her away right then and there.

    She leaned against the brick wall, her eyes lidded. Her thin sepia fingers held a cigarette to her thick ruby lips. Mo’Nique took a long drag, before slowly exhaling the smoke. Her hair fell in thick raven curls reaching her mid back. Her red dress was soaked from the rain, clinging to her perfect hour glass body. God has some sense of human, making a girl like that a dyke.

    “Hello Tony.”

    Her eyes are still closed as she spoke, still sucking on that butt. My nostrils flared, as I pulled the cannon from my pocket. I clicked back the safety, pointing the barrel towards Mo’Nique. My hand is steady, as I follow the gun right between Mo’Nique’s still sealed eyes. She still hasn’t flinched, not since she looked in her mirror.

    “What, not gonna beg?”

    “Tony,” Her voice had a slight tremble to it. “I’m with child.”



Sunday, 23 August 2009

  • Currently
    Fallen
    By Evanescence
    My Immortal
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    Hello Life-long insecurities.

    Have you ever felt you weren’t good enough?

    You know, maybe at a job or in school? Maybe with a group of friends, or perhaps even with your family? It might actually be the worst feeling on the planet. It burns you, to your core. It’s a constant feeling, which never goes away. It hurts, a lot. But nothing stings as harsh as feeling unworthy of love.

    Ever since I was a kid I’ve always felt I was never good enough. Not smart enough, not funny enough, not interesting enough, not thin enough, not attractive enough, just all around unworthy.  I never really understood why I felt this way, I just knew it hurt. I was one of the most antisocial children in elementary and middle school. I rarely spoke and when I did it was usually to only one person.

     He was everything to me growing up. He was my first friend, my first best friend. We moved into the same neighborhood at the exact same time, and naturally found common ground. I was extremely close with him from 2nd grade until 8th. I’m still not really sure what happened between us, but I know we stopped talking. I think it was because I went to a different high school than him, and we just fell out of touch.  We were inseparable for seven years, yet we drifted apart from each other in days… knowing that such a strong friendship can end so quickly really scares me. Still he lives around the corner from me. I’ve tried talking to him since then; keeping in contact could have been so easy. Yet, I wasn’t good enough for the effort it would take to send a text message.

    One year, I think it might have been 6th grade my parents sent me to sleep away camp. It was without a doubt the worst summer of my entire life. It was so bad, it has been burnt into my memory, I remember every single day of it. It started pretty decently though. I met one boy I got really close with. I began to form a childish crush on him. He was the only person I talked to. Then one night, he kissed me. We thought we were alone in our bunk, but everyone had seen. He pushed me onto the floor, and threw some nasty words my way. I didn’t care that I was branded the freak of the camp, and was made fun of everyday. The part that hurt was that he didn’t talk to me ever again, and left me stranded alone in Pennsylvania at a sleep away camp, heartbroken. He liked me enough to kiss me, but kissing me wasn’t worth being seen as different.

    Freshman year began so lonely for me; I’ve never felt so out of place. The first two months, I hadn’t opened my mouth once. Then I met someone, someone else who I felt comfortable around. I spent my whole freshman year hanging out with her. We became so close, it was amazing. That summer might have been the happiest summer of my life. But the start of sophomore year, we stopped talking.

    Sophomore year was the loneliest year of my entire life. I didn’t have any friends; I just drifted between groups of people. I never really lingered around anyone long enough to get close. I use to hate going to school, I tried to miss as many days as I could. I spend most of my free periods hiding in either the bathroom or the library… I hated this school year.

    Junior year was when I finally began enjoying school. I went to Italy with the chorus at my school, one of the greatest trips of my entire life. It was such a learning experience for me. I was spending 14 days straight constantly around people, actually forming friendships. I reconnected with my friend from freshman year, and today she and I are still very very close. Also on the trip I met two boys who would become my best friends.

    Senior year was a rollercoaster for me. I finally had friends, but I was still felt like I wasn’t worthy of anything. I was longing for love, so badly. In my warped mind, I reasoned that I didn’t have love because I was overweight. I swore to myself I would find love if I was thinner. I worked my body to exhaustion, trying to speed my results. When that didn’t work, I became anorexic. I survived on one cup of yogurt a day, for an entire year. I lost 90 pounds in about four months. I saw the weight drop in usually a pound or two a day. My ‘friends’ just sat there and made jokes about me, “You’re so Manorexic Gio.” They didn’t realize how true it was, I began going days without eating. Not one even cared enough to ask me. I wasn’t worth it.

    When college began, I flew across the country to Arizona State University. I thought going far away could make everything right. And for a while, it did. I have never felt more ‘at home’ then when I was at Arizona. I met amazing people, had amazing experiences, things were starting to look up. I finally had everything. Friends, happiness, and most of all, love. But one October night, the façade came crashing down. I think I finally know why I took all of those pills that night, I didn’t feel worthy of life.

    Ever since I’ve been home from Arizona, I’ve gone back to drifting. I spend a lot of nights at home, just lying in bed. I’ve gone through about 6 or 7 different groups of friends in the past year, never getting too close to anyone. I don’t really open up to anyone anymore, I just kind of spend my time trying to make people laugh. I don’t really feel like letting people see how miserable I really am. I don’t want the heartbreak of realizing they don’t care.

    I met someone last week on vacation. He was like no one I have ever met in my entire life. There was an instant pull towards him, I was intoxicated from him. He was everything I’ve been searching for. He touched my arm, and I got jolts through my entire body… I’ve never felt like that in my entire life. When he kissed me, the world stood still. We could have been extraordinary together.

    When I came home, we still stayed in touch. I haven’t been able to get him out of my mind, thinking about him every second. I haven’t even had the desire to look at another guy, I don’t want to look at anyone but him. We texted each other frequently, but it’s slowed to maybe one or two texts a day. I sent him a package in the mail, a mixed cd, the picture we took together, and a two page letter telling him how much I want to be with him. I really opened up to him in that letter, I told him things that no one else really knows. I told him I was falling hard for him, asking him if he felt the same way. I told him that if he didn’t feel the same way, please tell me so I could move on. I didn’t hear from him the entire day he received the package, the first day since we’ve met that we haven’t talked. The next day I got a text message saying ‘Hey man! I received your package yesterday afternoon in my mailbox… Thank you!!! Very sweet… I listened to cd at work, I was there until 4am!! I am going in now… There till 2am :(‘ That was it. No response to anything I had said in the letter. It’s been two days since he the letter, and still no response. I mean I understand he works fulltime, and doesn’t have a lot of spare time to talk, but I’m dying here. Anything would have done, even a ‘we’ll talk about it later.’ He didn’t even acknowledge it. I just feel like I’m not even worth a response.

    This constant fear of not being good enough will always haunt me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m slowly losing my mind. I'm starting to feel as if I'll never be good enough for anyone. I just feel utterly worthless. =\

Monday, 13 July 2009

  • Currently
    Be OK
    By Ingrid Michaelson
    Be Okay
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    A more polished preface

    Preface

    It all started in the year 2051. France was in turmoil, a civil war had just broken out. No one truly knew the reason for the wars beginning, but everyone had their own suspicions. Some said the newly re-established monarchy was already corrupted by the power it held. Others claimed the group of radicals sought to overthrow the king in order to shatter France’s peaceful facade.  A few conspiracy theorists began to theorize that the king was secretly hiding a claustrophobe that had resulted in a zombie outbreak. There were even rumors of the king’s family secretly aiding the rebels. The only thing that was truly known was that France was a dangerous battle ground with countless innocent civilians dying daily.

    The militant extremists first attacked in early January, destroying the small town of Villepreux in hours. Many other small towns fell in the days that followed. The soldiers continued to march through cities, obliterating anything that got in their way. They called themselves the étioler, taking pride in all that they devastated. In a week the étioler had Paris surrounded, tiptoeing around the nation’s capital. Hushed whispers started suggesting the étioler were planning an attack on the castle. It wasn’t long before France declared a state of emergency.

    The young king Émile plead to foreign nations for assistance, fearing for the lives of his people. After tensions between nations escalated to a near World War III in the year 2017, foreign nations began to lose touch with each other. Soon after all countries cut off contact with each other, focusing in on their own nations needs. The United Nations dispersed, and tourism flat lined. Few countries even began to build massive walls around their borders, cutting off all contact with the outside world. Émile hoped to rekindle former allies with his cry for help, but King Landry was heartbroken when all nations refused to assist the French Monarchy.

    It wasn’t long until the monarchy fell, crumbling all hope of peace in France. King Émile addressed the public, saying was prepared to stand his ground in Paris and was ready to die fighting off anyone who threatened France’s peace. The next morning Émile fled France, and hasn’t been heard from since. King Landry’s older brother, André, remained in Paris to fight for his younger brother’s kingdom. The étioler took Paris by storm, ambushing the one beautiful city. André held down the castle for days, relentlessly fighting off the étioler.  But André’s front wouldn’t last forever. The étioler infiltrated the castle on February 2nd 2051. Tristan Renard, the elite founder of the étioler, was quick to take the king’s throne. His first order was the public execution of André Landry. In a mere couple of hours the French Monarchy had withered away and a dictatorship swept across France.

    A newfound sense of fear quickly spread throughout the once peaceful streets of France. It started with kidnappings, quickly followed with the murder of anyone who opposed the étioler. Tristan Renard became known as a merciless killer, slaying hundreds of people without a hint of remorse. The people of France began to live in terror, rarely leaving the safety of their homes.  The people began to blame Émile for fleeing, holding public rallies against the former king. Renard ordered the étioler to break up the riots, violently killing anyone who spoke ill of Émile.

    No one understood why Renard tried protecting Émile’s name. People began to suspect Émile had offered Tristan the thrown, in exchange for a way out of the county. The young king was seen as a coward, leaving his people to be killed. The people labeled him as an accomplice to Renard, accusing Émile of high treason. The once beloved king was now one of the most hated men in all of France, second only to Tristan Renard.

    On February 9th 2052 Émile was spotted in Cuenca, Spain. He was seen in Los Moralejos, resting under the shade of a willow tree. A group of traveling Frenchmen surrounded Émile, allowing him no room to breathe.  They confronted the boy, demanding answers. When Émile attempted to respond to the allegations, he was struck down. The men didn’t stop striking the boy until he stopped moving. Émile didn’t attempt to defend himself, taking the beating he was receiving. Before his heavy eye lids fell, Émile managed to articulate one last sentence heard only by the men. Whatever he had said, it had managed to end the cruel beat down. The boy died with tears streaming down his face as the men stood in silence.

    Or at least that’s what the news had broadcasted.

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